Confusion

Need to rework on lot of things.
I just really need to take every single parts of my life, rework them, and reassembly everything.
I dediced too many times not to fight too many battles, I lost too many times my own battles, I decided too many times not to take my own decisions.

Someone else has decided for me. Someone else made me lose. Someone else fought my battles.

And too many times, they weren't so decided to fight properly, they weren't there when i had my kneels on ground crying, and those weren't the right decisions for me.

That wasn't me. That wasn't me fighting my own battles. That wasn't me taking my own decision. That wasn't me chosing my destiny. That wasn't me following my own ideas for my future.
That was definitely not me saving myself.

That was not me.
That was a motherfucking puppet of someonelse.

This is me, now. I'll take back control.

Control with the Start. Control with her. Control from university pressure. Control from ergonomic keyboards. Control from cheating friends and ghost of ex best friends.

This is me, taking control of my whole life. Once again.